i feel nothing like i did then...

"21 Mar 2006 19:20

kyle,
i wish i could be with you so badly right now. i really hope you're home by the weekend. or that i get to see you somehow this weekend. i miss you already and you're probably not even in london yet. it's just that i'm so upset and you're the only person who can really make it better, even if its just by being with you.
just worry about figuring stuff out, okay? don't worry about me. i just want to see you feeling better, i'm worried about you. i had lots of coffee and a shower and i talked to ------, which helped a lot.
i hate not being able to make this better for you. i hate that i can't fix it and i can't cheer you up and there's nothing i can say to make it better.
i'm just so worried. figure things out, but just know that i'd do whatever it takes to stay together. anything. and if we both think it can work, and we really try, there's no reason it won't. i just hope you at least somewhat feel the same?
well today is possibly the worst ever. all of this suddenly happening, stuff with ---- and -----, no one is happy. i wish i could just stay home from school tomorrow and see you instead :)
ahh, i know all this complaining from me isn't helping things!
sorry sorry sorry.
just cheer up, you know that i love you no matter what and i'll always be here for you. and you're a lot stronger than you think.
call me tomorrow if you can please!
and hopefully you have a good sleep.

i love you so much kyle.♥"


this made me happy at one point...

calm before the storm...

So lately things have been kinda of rough for me for more than one reason, but I feel like I'm starting to get on top of my struggles though my day-to-day life. It feels nice to finally be able to say that and mean it.

I think being single for once (for more than a month or two) as been good for me to say the least. Despite being alone, and not having someone to watch movies in bed with it's for the best. It's nice to life my life for me, and not have to base my schedule around someone else, but I also miss that too.

In other news the London Zombie Walk is only eight days away, and i couldn't be more excited! I think year three will be the best tour out thus far for sure. There is also a Zombie Walk After Party, which will be a good time also.

That's all for today as I've got a busy day ahead of me, Dead Rising 2 won't beat I'ts self you know!



do want...

braaaiiinnnsss...

The 2010 London Zombie Walk is almost here and holy smokes i cannot wait! Being the loser I am, on a Friday night, I've spent the last hour trying different undead outfits on... yikes.

If you're reading this then you should make an effort to make it out this year, its lots of fun for sure! Maybe I'll hit up Retro night in my outfit so long as I'm not the only one to do so hah.


WALK INFO HERE

Cya next time!

things are going to change...

And change fast.

On the bright side, the London Zombie walk is coming up soon, cannot be more excited.