photographic memories...

I am starting to really get into this whole photography thing, but I am by no means a photographer by definition. Out of all my little hobbies I think this one has the most effect upon myself. I continuously look back on all the photos I have taken just to remember the time and events that happened, and for the most part it brings back a lot of good feelings, it's nice. Even though most of the people that specific photos related to have lost contact with me, they still bring back thoughts of the good times I had with said people.

I'm going to start bringing my camera with me more often, so I can keep a visual journal so to speak.

If you are reading this then you should check out my Flickr profile. Again nothing professional just something to look at more or less.

Visit my Flickr page here.

that's it for now.

i feel nothing like i did then...

"21 Mar 2006 19:20

kyle,
i wish i could be with you so badly right now. i really hope you're home by the weekend. or that i get to see you somehow this weekend. i miss you already and you're probably not even in london yet. it's just that i'm so upset and you're the only person who can really make it better, even if its just by being with you.
just worry about figuring stuff out, okay? don't worry about me. i just want to see you feeling better, i'm worried about you. i had lots of coffee and a shower and i talked to ------, which helped a lot.
i hate not being able to make this better for you. i hate that i can't fix it and i can't cheer you up and there's nothing i can say to make it better.
i'm just so worried. figure things out, but just know that i'd do whatever it takes to stay together. anything. and if we both think it can work, and we really try, there's no reason it won't. i just hope you at least somewhat feel the same?
well today is possibly the worst ever. all of this suddenly happening, stuff with ---- and -----, no one is happy. i wish i could just stay home from school tomorrow and see you instead :)
ahh, i know all this complaining from me isn't helping things!
sorry sorry sorry.
just cheer up, you know that i love you no matter what and i'll always be here for you. and you're a lot stronger than you think.
call me tomorrow if you can please!
and hopefully you have a good sleep.

i love you so much kyle.♥"


this made me happy at one point...

calm before the storm...

So lately things have been kinda of rough for me for more than one reason, but I feel like I'm starting to get on top of my struggles though my day-to-day life. It feels nice to finally be able to say that and mean it.

I think being single for once (for more than a month or two) as been good for me to say the least. Despite being alone, and not having someone to watch movies in bed with it's for the best. It's nice to life my life for me, and not have to base my schedule around someone else, but I also miss that too.

In other news the London Zombie Walk is only eight days away, and i couldn't be more excited! I think year three will be the best tour out thus far for sure. There is also a Zombie Walk After Party, which will be a good time also.

That's all for today as I've got a busy day ahead of me, Dead Rising 2 won't beat I'ts self you know!



do want...

braaaiiinnnsss...

The 2010 London Zombie Walk is almost here and holy smokes i cannot wait! Being the loser I am, on a Friday night, I've spent the last hour trying different undead outfits on... yikes.

If you're reading this then you should make an effort to make it out this year, its lots of fun for sure! Maybe I'll hit up Retro night in my outfit so long as I'm not the only one to do so hah.


WALK INFO HERE

Cya next time!

things are going to change...

And change fast.

On the bright side, the London Zombie walk is coming up soon, cannot be more excited.

all connections severed...

Oh well, I'll move on too I guess.

In other news, a few friends and myself are going to be working on a graphic novel series in the near future, which is really exciting as I haven't done any creative wiring in a few years now, I think I'm past due. So far we've agreed that it's gong to be set in a post-apocalyptic era, with a small group of survivors looking for refuge.

Not much else to say that needs to be said via blog, that being said, it's movie time.

cya' next time.

words have no meaning...

I don't see how you can tell me that nothing is happening when all signs scream that they already are. I'm not totally oblivious to what you're doing, and I can honestly say I don't care anymore. Anything related to us being friends again is out the window, and you can thank yourself for this.

I'm starting to get used to being alone, my priorities are finally in check, and things are slowly beginning to fall into place. So if it's one thing I can take away from all of this mess, it's that.

I know you're happy with how things are going, that much is apparent, so I really don't have much else to say.

On a side note, Halo: Reach is fucking amazing.

Cya.

2d / 21h / 34m

Till not having a significant will not matter to me for some time. If you don't know this is the count down till Halo Reach is released, and I cannot be more excited about this, and yes I'll be waiting in line to pick it up at midnight. I'm a big nerd, and I'm confident with this.

Now it's only 2d / 21h / 32m away.
...I might pee a bit.

i may not have handled the situation too well...

But at least I had honest intentions, and stayed true to them. I tried to be civil, I tried to be your friend, but all I got out of any contact made was the recent past thrown back in my face. You can go right ahead and do your own thing, which is obviously what you're doing despite the fact that just about everyone will question your reasoning / motives. But I know what He's done, and I know that you said you couldn't go back to him. Guess that was a lie just to make me feel secure. It's also a bummer that you had to go behind my back to my best friend about buying drugs from him, that makes me fucking sick. It really makes no sense to me as to why you'd even consider this path again, but I truly hope you don't get fucked over again. Have a nice life, not that you'll see this.

I hope you're happy, I'm not.

welp..

...things could be worse right now, but I cant see how they could be. Sucks being ignored, and it sucks having you go back on your word. I'm done with trying to be happy with someone.

Ladies and Gentleman...

open up your eyes and ears..

So I've been going through older music that I have on my Zune and stumbled upon the Four Year Strong album Rise or Die Trying, and it has put me in the strangest mood, one i haven't felt in some time now. So many memories came rushing back to me so fast. Back when I didn't let things bug me and just did what was most fun. Times when I wasn't stressed about money and relationships. A time when I had lots of friends. Now i have very few, but those said few would not be traded for the past if it were remotely possible.

I think it's time for me to start fresh, let go, and live life. Like I did circa 2007. I have no clue as to how to pull this off, but I'm tired of just letting things pass me by because I don't feel like going out. I've missed out on enough already, so why not right?

I think I'll start this new chapter on my Toronto trip in two weeks. Meet new friends, explore unfamiliar places, maybe even get lost just for fun. I'll have to play it by year.

This is the start of a new me.

my new hobby...

Is proving to be much more fun than i anticipated (that hobby being tattooing). I've only done two tattoos to date, one on my thigh and my girlfriend's toes. But those were more of a touch up then an actual piece. Tomorrow I get to do two more after work on my good friends, so I guess I'll post results after all is said and done!

oh hello...

Forgot all about you, dear blog, for this I am sorry.

So what's new? Not a horribly large amount, but at the very least a notable list of happenings.

As of a few weeks ago I worked on / finished artwork for UTKF's website / EP / general uses. They turned out pretty well I think given my lack of digital art skills, and general lack of time. If said artwork gets used anytime soon, I will include it in future posts. (But you should still check out UTKF for updates!)

Last night besides having a good old wobbly time with my close friends at Retro night, and a certain minor reoccurring annoyance, I finally bought my tattoo gear which I'm really excited for. (see image attached below) I'm in no way expecting to make any money or any "cred" from this purchase, I just find the whole thing very interesting. Not to mention the amount of joke tattoos I have in mind for my friends to get! My girlfriend (Leanne) also wants me to do a few small pieces on her once I fully get the feel for the craft, which I think is very special, and will bring us closer in some way or another, if not it'll be a hell of a lot of fun regardless.

Work has been consistently busy which is also good for me and my bank account. I really do like my job but i really do hate having to tuck my shirts in now, stupid safety laws. Our department has been crazy busy as we are getting two brand new manufacturing lines from Germany which is cool because I love to see how things are build and this time I get to take part in it as well.

In other news, I will be going to my good friend Kevin's cottage with old friends from high school in about two weeks time which is always a great weekend away. It'll be nice to get away from everything and just relax with good friends, not to mention cave exploring and paddle boating. Last year we thought it to be a good idea to try to paddle boat from on end of the lake to the other. Needless to say, this was an idea that should have not been put to action. I'm also going to take time out and do a lot of photography while I'm up there just to document the good times.

Also, September 17th needs to come sooner. This is the weekend that Leanne and myself are trekking to Toronto for a weekend with by best friend Ryan to play obscene amounts of Halo: Reach, and i REALLY hope Adam can make it as I have yet to meet him. I know what you're thinking, and yes amateur halo themed tattoos will be done, "In chief we trust." maybe? We shall see.

I don't really have much else to write about, things are just going smoothly and should be for quite some time.

Till next time, stay classy San-Diego!

its been a while...

Almost a full month, I'm not exactly sure why its been so long! I've been pretty swamped at work this past week as i had to take over for someone in shipping/receiving as they were on a weeks vacation. So that kept me busy for the week, ad on top of my normal pay, i also got acting pay for the week so next pay should be huge, which I'm stoked for.

Hopefully with said pay I can finally finish my half sleeve that has been in the works for over a year now, it's taking forever to finish as I spend my money on other things first. But its one sit away so it'll be done soon!

Recently my xbox disk drive died on me making playing games impossible, the solution? Go to Wal-Mart buy a cheap arcade xbox (200$) bring it home and take the insides out and swap them with my broken ones. Then take said xbox back to Wal-Mart for full cash return, leaving me with a fresh new xbox. Thanks in part by my wonderful girlfriend!

Speaking of which, things couldn't be any better at all with her. She bought me Red Dead Redemption, a game I've been longing for for sometime now, just because she wanted to make me happy. Shes more then anyone could ask for to say the least. I'm more then happy, and it's not because she bought me a video game either, shes just perfect for me.

Today is Father's day and im waiting for the delivery man to deliver my dad's gift I ordered for him. So I should go get myself ready for early Father's day BBQ.

Hopefully I will post more often from now on, stay tunned!

finally my life is back

AKA, my computer is back! I just finally finished setting it up, installing everything I need, and loading all my music and media back on. Took just about three days. I never realized how much it takes to run my room, as my computer is networked to my tv/xbox and also with Kristen's computer via media server. okay, I'm done nerding out.

So besides downloading so much crap over the past little while, all things are going normal. Working hard, playing xbox, hanging with the girl, repeat.

As for the girl, things are going amazing. i Couldn't ask for anything more, nor do i want it. Hopefully things will be official really really soon!

Yesterday I went skating with Kyle Goss, Matt White and Aaron Kubu and it was a pretty good time. We ended up skating in the gettos messing around on these bendy knee high rails. But besides having fun skating with the guys, it was also really depressing seeing people live in fixed income housing. I wish I could help them but at the same time I know they cant even help themselves, which is why they live the way they do.

I also recently went home for the weekend last weekend, and that was a good time. Finally got to take photos in this old abandoned house I would always see on my way into Port Franks. Besides the house being FULL of animal poop, there was some pretty neat things left behind in that place. It also seems like it was/it a squat house too, which is strange because it's in the middle of no where on the side of the highway.

I think I'm going to go back to bed and watch some movies, so as I do that you should lurk my flickr page!

My Photostream here

Cheers!

rough hands, rough days...

I've been working my ass off at work lately, as good as it feels it's taking a toll on me for sure. But in the end it'll all be well worth it. I'm planning to take a weekend trip to Toronto with the girl hopefully within the next month or so. It'll be a really great time to say the least.

Speaking of said girl, things are going really really well. Each time we hangout its easier to be myself with her, and vice versa. I'm going to make her my girlfriend soon, and I'm both nervous and completely excited. I feel I'm ready to be in a relationship again, but its going to feel weird having someone care for me like I know she will. I know it'll be good for me and us regardless.

I get my computer back tomorrow finally. So ill be back to daily blog updates yet again! I need to save up for computer upgrades as I need either a new motherboard or CPU, or both if I want to spend a little more. My current board is outdated and can't support windows 7 which is what I would like to have running as my O
S. So hopefully that happens soon too, I miss my computer so much :/

Welp I think I'm going to watch some generic action movie, text the lady, and try to pass out.

12 hour shift tomorrow not so stoked.

Later days!

its been almost a week

Without my computer and I'm losing my mind. I don't care how sad that is but I love my computer more then a lot of things in my life, legit.

Besides not having a computer, I've been just hanging out with the girl and working, and of course playing Halo, as per usual.

I've been skating a lot more lately, and I'm progressing really well. Kyle Goss has also moved back to Ontario and he's pushing me to step it up a bit hah.

I went home to Port Franks this past weekend, besides it being really boring in that town and have zero reception, it was pretty nice to see my family and old friends!

I'ts tough to post this blog from my phone so I'm giving up.

hopefully I will have my computer back tomorrow which will rule hard!

Cya later!

I'ts been a few days...

Since my last post so let's hope this is a good post!

Last Friday I did merch for my friend Ryan Sweets band UTKF (look them up if you haven't), and was also informed that they want me to go on a small tour for two weeks, which I am more then stoked on doing! If not for the chance to travel with bands again, but for the great times with rad friends.

Speaking of UTKF, the guys have offically said that I will be handling their album art for their next album! I'm both stoked and nervous about this. Stoked that if they use it I can finally rub it in my dads face that graphic design wasn't a waste of time after all, and nervous because its a lot of work and I want to have something that will look good for them. Ontop of that, Johnny OC wants me to do work for him too! So my life is slowly getting more and more busy as the days pass.

I also spent a little more then the whole weekend at the girls place, and it was great. Her bedroom is pitch black so I finally got to sleep past ten AM, infact we slept in till just past noon every morning. Such a good weekend, even though all we did was lay around watching movies and episodes of house but I wouldn't trade it for anything!

This weekend I will be heading home to Port Franks to visit my mum, do all my laundry, see old friends and take a whole lot of photos. I'm pretty excited for this!

Other then the already mentioned, I guess all that's left to talk about it work. Hopefully I get my two raises this month which should put me close to fifteen dollars an hour, which will help a whole lot. I also will be working thirteen hour days every Thursday, which will also help with money so it worth it.

Other then my computer being broken again, not much is wrong with my day to day life :]

I'm going to cheer up Kristen (my room mate) and finish watching Bruce Almighty!

Also, sorry for the lack of related pictures, but it will not let me post pictures from my phone.

See you next time!

tired..

I haven't done much today besides the photo shoot, which only took about half an hour. but I figured I would update this for the day as I wont have any time to between now and Sunday morning.

UTKF plays tonight and I'll be doing merch which is always a good time. Then after the show I'll be heading to the girls place for the night, then movie dating it up tomorrow night, it'll be a good time!

Seeing as this is a content lacking post I leave you with this picture.

thirteen hour days...

Kinda suck a lot. I find myself working more, and working harder now. So I guess what I planned out to do in respects to work actually went according to plan which is good news for me. More money for bills to be paid, more money for tattoos, and more money to take the lady on more movie dates!

Speaking of which, Friday will be our first actual planned out date. She tells me that "our whole relationship is relying on this very date", she's a sweetheart! She's gunna by my Pam someday soon. Also tomorrow brings a photo shoot ill be in to help out my friend with her school project, which should be cool. I will also be helping out my friend Ryan Sweet's band "Under The Killing Floor", by running their merch table for the night, which I'm beyond stoked on. I love those guys (full homo).

As for the last update-less days, I've been spending it working, being happy, and spending time with the girl. So needless to say things are finally looking up for me.

I've recently dealt with this silly year old drama, and now that its dealt with i think things will be a lot less awkward and stressful. Which is always nice!

What else... I've been on an Anberlin binge this past week, this band will never get old to me and I'm also considering getting a line tattooed on me from a song as a chest piece, i just cant pin one down that has more meaning to me then the rest yet. But I'm sure i'll find one and sit on it for a while before getting it done.

I don't have much left to say to say, so with that, I'll say goodnight.

so...

Last night was one of the best nights I've had in a really long time. Besides having a small taste of the Halo: Reach BETA, making far too many "that's what she said." jokes, I went over for dinner and a movie at the girls new place. I haven't had a meal cooked for me in quite a while, it was only Velveeta KD but I have never had it before so it was an experience regardless! In case you were wondering, yes it was delicious, but I think I may be mildly lactose intolerant as the mass amount of cheese made me feel a little queezy. After cheese-fest we watched Oceans 12 in bed and kinda fell asleep here and there, but it was a great night anyhow. If this girl keeps up this cuteness its going to be impossible to not fall even more for her.

As for today, I'm going to play as much of the Reach BETA as humanly possible. Providing that the Bungie servers are fixed and will let me play more then one game before shutting down and bumming out well over 50,000 nerds like me. Once the retail copies hit shelves this fall, I will happily drop $150.00 on the Legendary Edition.

With a price of $149.99, the Halo Reach Legendary Edition is one of the pricier collector's editions we've seen, but it certainly isn't without reason. There's not mini-plastic cat helmet inside this box. Instead, Bungie commissioned McFarlane Toys to create a 10 inch tall, 10 pound diorama statue featuring the members of Noble Team, the stars of the game.

As if that weren't enough, the Legendary Edition also comes with a flaming Spartan helmet for multiplayer, as well as all of the contents of the Limited Edition, all packed inside a striking UNSC-themed custom box.

I like to justify this purchase by saying it's the last game in the Halo series, at least that Bungie is developing. So its important to me that i go all out and show my support!

Now I think it's time to have a nap with Joshua (my cat), and watch some more of The Office.

Take it easy!

today is the day

Where I sit here and wait for the Halo: Reach beta to come online. I'm still confused as to why this girl likes me, what twenty-three year old takes a day off work to play a demo version of a game? This guy does!

So as it stands; today consists of sitting in my room playing the beta till the girl comes to pry my hands from the controller, then its off to her new place to build a fort and watch movies in said fort!

Till next time!

"SUIT UP AND LOAD-OUT SPARTANS!"

a day late

Updating my blog, but, "better late then never" right?

Yesterday was Free Comic Book day, and If it weren't for the stupid rain i would have taken full advantage of it. But Jessica and i did make it to Heroes and we got some free comics. Specifically stoked on the Lobo Christmas special, and an old Batman comic. I also caved in and bought a toy, as well as "A Dame To Kill For", the second Sin City book.

Besides that, I got to see the girl after a week (finally!), and had a "Panormous" pizza which was really disappointing to be honest. Its not even that big, such a let down.

Im going to play some Xbox, so stay tuned, same bat-time, same bat-channel!

I'm far too tired...

To post anything meaningful. so ill post a list instead.

-work sucked, nuff' said.
-best friends are here for hangs, always a good time.
-tomorrow is free comic book day, stoked.
-Sunday I finally see the girl, stoked times two.
-Monday I'll also see the girl, (see above)
-Tuesday is the release of the Halo: Reach beta, cant wait.

I'm a nerd, and I'm very okay with this.

goodnight!

not a bad day

I worked a solid ten hours today, and it feels good working hard for a change. Not having a life leads to me working my butt off and I guess the girl being back home can also be blamed for this! (she needs to move into her new place asap)

I really don't have much to write about today as all I did was work, but i did get to teach some basic vacuum repair to my room mate Kristen when i got home, which will be helpful to her day to day life, I'm sure.

I'm still procrastinating on finishing Ryan Sweets picture but I should have it all done by the weekend. But then I have three other photos lined up, i think i should start charging people for this! Not that anyone would pay for it, but its a thought.

I also need a massage, I think my body is in knots as I have not slept throughout the night one night this week. Four AM seems to be my, "wake up for no reason, and feel totally awake" time, and it's wicked frustrating when you have to get up at eight AM the same morning for work.

That being said, I'm going to watch the season ending episode of L.A. Ink, and try to sleep straight through to my alarm for once.

Adiós!

tomorrow will suck my will to live...

As I will be working at least a 12 hour shift, but hey, its going to be a good money making shift so I guess that's a plus!

I've also come to terms with this nagging ankle problem I have after every skate session I have I find myself limping around that night like it's sprained or something. But its usually fine the next morning, so I really have no idea what the hell is wrong with it.

Things are finally starting to look up for me, and its about time. Next Friday ill be helping out a friend with her photography project and I'm pretty stoked for that. The following Saturday ill be going on a date (:$) and checking out the "VIP" theater at west mount, we're going to see the Nightmare On Elm street, which should be pretty damn good. If not only for Jackie Earle Haley taking over Freddy's claws, should be a good watch, but a good night regardless!

That's pretty much it for tonight, I need to actually sleep through the night for once :/

Cya later!

calling it quits for tonight

On photoshoppin' Ryan Sweet's photo. Ive put nearly four hours into this picture and its only half done. I wish I could be consumed so easily by more things in my life then just my computer; aka. the "Command Center". But to be fair a lot of the time i spend on my computer is spent reading up on random things and doing research on said things. It's never anything specific, but i enjoy learning new things on my own terms.

I'm also making a conscious, and firm effort to work more hours, so i can pay off debts and get more work done on my body(tattoo wise). It's weird to think about but I've been working away at my half sleeve for 15 months now, and theres only one more sit to go before its complete. Then I'll feel the hunger for more and end up working on my chest, before making my way to another half sleeve on my left arm. Maybe a zombie-pirate themed piece? who knows?

I've recently met someone new, and she makes me pretty darn happy. despite the drama that has and is occurring as a result, but i feel like its worth the grief in exchange for the happiness and company.

Besides getting new jewelery in the mail today, nothing exciting really happened, unless i count Kyle Howard creeping me out this morning on my way to work.

That being said i think today's chapter can be closed.
See you tomorrow!

welp', i caved.

I'm going to give this blog thing a shot and see how it goes, not sure ill ill post anything REALLY worth reading but that's not important.

Lately things have been crazy and all over the place, between trying to pay off debts, and meeting new faces, and working, there's not much time to just sit down and enjoy what i love.

Today I'm spending my day off to catch up on some reading and some much needed time with my Xbox yelling at adolescent children via Xbox Live. Either that or have them totally embarrass me which will lead to the inevitable "Rage Quit".

Wish me luck.