i feel nothing like i did then...

"21 Mar 2006 19:20

kyle,
i wish i could be with you so badly right now. i really hope you're home by the weekend. or that i get to see you somehow this weekend. i miss you already and you're probably not even in london yet. it's just that i'm so upset and you're the only person who can really make it better, even if its just by being with you.
just worry about figuring stuff out, okay? don't worry about me. i just want to see you feeling better, i'm worried about you. i had lots of coffee and a shower and i talked to ------, which helped a lot.
i hate not being able to make this better for you. i hate that i can't fix it and i can't cheer you up and there's nothing i can say to make it better.
i'm just so worried. figure things out, but just know that i'd do whatever it takes to stay together. anything. and if we both think it can work, and we really try, there's no reason it won't. i just hope you at least somewhat feel the same?
well today is possibly the worst ever. all of this suddenly happening, stuff with ---- and -----, no one is happy. i wish i could just stay home from school tomorrow and see you instead :)
ahh, i know all this complaining from me isn't helping things!
sorry sorry sorry.
just cheer up, you know that i love you no matter what and i'll always be here for you. and you're a lot stronger than you think.
call me tomorrow if you can please!
and hopefully you have a good sleep.

i love you so much kyle.♥"


this made me happy at one point...